Hello lovely thatters! So here is chapter 14 of my fan fiction I really hope you like it, all feedback is so appreciated and any shout outs for my fiction means absolutely everything to me! My twitter is @medsies_world (: Now I know for some of you this chapter is going to come as a shock so I feel the need to assure you everything will be okay! Anyway, thankyou so much for reading this! So much love for you guys ^.^ Enjoy! xx
The room fell into awful silence. Mark stood at the doorway still panting, he’d ran the entire way after waking up late.
“What are you on about?” Gary demanded, anger rising in his chest. Seriously? So Mark was late and he had interrupted the vows?
Mark walked hastily up the aisle. “I didn’t want to do this in front of everyone, but Jason you left me no choice, Howard deserves to know.”
Gary threw his hands up in the air. “Know about what? For Christ sake Mark this isn’t a fucking soap opera.”
Howard looked at Jason. Jason raised his hands. “I have no idea what he’s talking about!”
“Jason is having an affair.” Mark said plainly. “I heard him on the phone and last night his room was empty, then later I saw someone leave his room in disguise.”
Howard felt like he had been punched in the stomach. His head felt light, oh god, he hoped he wouldn’t feint. Gasps sounded all around the hall, the vicar cleared his throat uncomfortably. Gary grabbed Howard’s arm, he didn’t know why, instinct told him it was the right thing to do. No one’s reacted compared to Jason’s though. His fists were curled, his teeth gritted.
“Seriously? You thought I was having a fucking affair? You ruined my wedding not even on any hard evidence? Do you want to know who I was talking to?” Jason thundered. “I flew Howard’s very best friend who he hasn’t seen for 10 years, Pippa and her sister Sophie all the way over from America, they are waiting to surprise him in the party hall, I wasn’t in my room last night because the girls wanted to see London and they left in disguise so Howard wouldn’t fucking run into them.”
Jason turned to Howard. “Surprise. Happy fucking wedding day, I would never cheat on you Howard, I love you, you know that.”
Howard nodded, tears filling his eyes, he took Jason’s hand. “I know that, I love you too.”
Mark stood there. Oh god, he’d fucked up. He’d really, really fucked up. He’d thought he was doing the right thing by stopping the wedding, he thought he was going to be the good guy. It was hitting him that he’d just ruined his best friend’s wedding.
“I’m… oh god, guys I am so sorry… I thought… I don’t know what I thought… I’m so sorry.” Mark spluttered, taking a desperate step towards both of them.
Howard put his hand on Mark’s arm. “Mark… its fine, it shows you care I suppose, just maybe next time ensure that your right.” Howard smiled a little. “I don’t think its us your going to need to make this up too…”
Mark turned around, Gary stared at him long and hard in the face before turning on his heel and slamming the big wooden doors behind him.
***
Mark found Gary outside, sat on the concrete wall, staring out over the fields that surrounded the stately home Gary had picked for the wedding. He’d liked it because it was quiet… not very well known and yet old and beautiful in its own right. They’d escaped the paparazzi to get here, Gary hadn’t wanted the wedding to be interrupted by anyone. He’d wanted it to be quiet, no drama yet spectacular.
Mark sat down quietly next to him. Mark hadn’t known what had been going through his head whilst he had been running towards the wedding ceremony, he’d woken up late and panicked. He just hadn’t wanted Howard to marry someone if they had been cheating, it would break Howard inside.
“I’m sorry.” Gary said quietly.
Mark jerked up his eyebrows in surprise. “What are you apologizing for? I’m the one that ruined the wedding you’ve been working so hard on.”
“I’m sorry being so crap recently, I’m sorry I left you last night to take a call, I’m sorry I don’t tell you I love you enough.” Gary said, not looking at Mark and instead keeping his eyes on the grounds before him.
Mark could hardly believe what was happening. Gary was apologizing? Jesus, that made him feel even worse about the whole thing.
“No, I’m sorry.” He said. “I acted out without meaning to, I just panicked you know.”
Gary’s heart hammered in his chest. His head hurt with unshed tears, but Gary wasn’t a crier. He turned to look at Mark, green eyes met green eyes.
“I’m also sorry for what I’m about to say.” Gary said. “It’s not working for me… you and I being together.”
Mark’s throat closed up, he felt like his world was coming crashing down around him.
“What?” He said, pain lining his features.
“You deserve someone who is always there for you… not distant like me… and I… I deserve someone who knows how much this wedding meant to me.” With that Gary stood and began to walk away, with every step he took his heart broke a little bit more. He couldn’t believe the words that were coming out of his mouth, like nothing he else he wanted to turn around and kiss Mark and tell him he was only joking, but his feet forced him forward. Further away.
Mark ran after him, grabbing his arm. “You cant leave me… we worked so hard to get here, don’t tell me you are coward enough to break everything we have without even talking it through like adults… if you want a break… fine… but you cant leave me for good, you just cant.” Mark felt like someone had shoved their hand down his throat and ripped his heart out, he couldn’t believe what he was hearing.
“We both need a break.” Gary said.
Mark let his hand drop from Gary’s arm and watched as Gary walked away. From inside the hall Mark could hear the applause as Jason and Howard were pronounced officially a civil partnership. Gary had said they were having a break. That meant they would get back together right? That had to be the way. Mark couldn’t do it alone. He turned around and watched through the window and Howard and Jason walked back down the aisle, hand in hand, smiling as people clapped. Like nothing else Mark needed his two best friends to talk to him about this… to tell him that everything was going to be okay. Mark watched as Pippa and Sophie ran screaming towards Howard, they embraced, both girls wiping tears from their eyes as they spoke excitedly to the newly married couple. Howard laughed and hugged them again. Swallowing his pain Mark walked back into the hall like nothing had happened.
***
Hours later after the celebrations, Jason stood in his and Howard’s suite. He looked down at the ring on his finger and smiled. He felt better about everything that had happened that day… okay so Mark ruined his surprise. Howard was still ecstatic that the girls were here. It was Sue and Nikki that had convinced him that everything was okay. The rest of the night had run smoothly, although Jason had seen neither Gary or Mark for the rest of the night… he felt sad that he had missed sharing his special day with his best friends but he supposed they needed to sort things out. Plus Robbie had been there, him and Kate showing off some very strange dance moves. Jason laughed quietly to himself. He was lucky to be surrounded by so many lovely people. He had danced with Rachel throughout the night, she even challenged him to a dance off. And won, by doing a fantastic robot. Although Jason insisted he had only been giving it 40%.
Howard opened the door to the suite. “Sorry that took so long, the girls had so much to tell me.” He smiled. “Women have a fantastic ability of talking so fast I barely got any of it.”
Jason smiled at his new ‘civil partner.’ It was a funny way of putting it, Howard was his husband in Jason’s eyes. His partner forever and always.
“Do you think we should see if Mark and Gary are okay?” Howard said looking concerned.
Jason shook his head. “No… they need to sort this out themselves… tonight is about us.”
Howard smiled. “Your right… come over here then.” Howard held out his hand.
Jason set his glass down on the table and took Howard’s hand. Howard drew him towards him and pressed his lips on Jason’s.
“Happy wedding day, I love you.” Howard said quietly.
Jason smiled and kissed him again. A smile spreading over his lips Jason wrapped his arms around Howard. Something felt different tonight between him and Howard… it was a like a new energy drawing them together. Even though they had been together for a good few years… tonight felt like they were right back to that very first time.
Howard’s hand drifted to Jason’s collar as he began to undo the buttons. Well atleast he attempted to anyway, only to find they appeared to have welded themselves shut. Howard stopped kissing Jason and attempted at the buttons again. Jason laughed.
“Seriously?” He said, still laughing.
“They have like welded shut!” Howard said grumpily. “You’d think for how expensive it was the buttons would fucking open… You’re going to have pull it over your head.”
Jason laughed again and raised his eyebrows. “It’s a shirt, it won’t get over my head.”
Howard sighed. “Well then I apologize, I hope this shirt didn’t mean to much to you.” And with that he took the collar and ripped the shirt clean from top to the bottom. Jason stared at his suddenly naked torso.
“Well that’s £600 out the window.” He muttered.
Howard grinned and pulled Jason back toward him. He could feel the warmth of Jason’s chest seeping through his own shirt, Jason’s hands were warm also as they successfully undid Howard’s shirt. Clothes began to hit the floor, Howard fumbled with the light switch and the room was plunged into almost darkness. The heat between him and Jason was almost unbearable, yet he delighted in the flames and the flickers of electricity that shot between them. Jason couldn’t help but thinking everything about Howard was perfect. He couldn’t keep the smile off his face as he pressed himself closer to Howard.
***
Sue, Rachel, Chloe, Kennedy and Nikki were all sat with their feet up, a glass of champagne in each of their hands.
“Christ my feet are killing me, bloody heels.” Grumbled Sue as she rubbed at her heel.
“I cant believe Jason and Howard are married… its so perfect.” Kennedy said taking a sip of her champagne.
“I am not one for romance particularly but even I cannot deny that those two were absolutely made for each other.” Rachel said grinning.
“Has anyone seen Mark or Gary?” Nikki asked, concern lining her features.
Chloe shook her head. “No… I suppose maybe they needed to talk stuff over… I mean Gary’s got to be pretty mad.”
Sue grimaced. “I hope they’re going to be okay… you know how passionate about stuff those two get.”
***
As Howard and Jason fell asleep in each other’s arms, their breath coming out raggedly, their hearts hammering against each other, Gary sat at his piano a pencil in his hand.
He scribbled at a piece of paper in front of him and played a few more chords. Nodding to himself he wrote something else down. Sitting back in his chair he sighed. Not even song writing was making him feel any better, his chest ached like nothing he’d ever experienced. He didn’t know how long he could stand being apart from Mark, oh God, what had he done? Gary ran his hands through his hair. He couldn’t live his life without Mark. He just couldn’t.
The room fell into awful silence. Mark stood at the doorway still panting, he’d ran the entire way after waking up late.
“What are you on about?” Gary demanded, anger rising in his chest. Seriously? So Mark was late and he had interrupted the vows?
Mark walked hastily up the aisle. “I didn’t want to do this in front of everyone, but Jason you left me no choice, Howard deserves to know.”
Gary threw his hands up in the air. “Know about what? For Christ sake Mark this isn’t a fucking soap opera.”
Howard looked at Jason. Jason raised his hands. “I have no idea what he’s talking about!”
“Jason is having an affair.” Mark said plainly. “I heard him on the phone and last night his room was empty, then later I saw someone leave his room in disguise.”
Howard felt like he had been punched in the stomach. His head felt light, oh god, he hoped he wouldn’t feint. Gasps sounded all around the hall, the vicar cleared his throat uncomfortably. Gary grabbed Howard’s arm, he didn’t know why, instinct told him it was the right thing to do. No one’s reacted compared to Jason’s though. His fists were curled, his teeth gritted.
“Seriously? You thought I was having a fucking affair? You ruined my wedding not even on any hard evidence? Do you want to know who I was talking to?” Jason thundered. “I flew Howard’s very best friend who he hasn’t seen for 10 years, Pippa and her sister Sophie all the way over from America, they are waiting to surprise him in the party hall, I wasn’t in my room last night because the girls wanted to see London and they left in disguise so Howard wouldn’t fucking run into them.”
Jason turned to Howard. “Surprise. Happy fucking wedding day, I would never cheat on you Howard, I love you, you know that.”
Howard nodded, tears filling his eyes, he took Jason’s hand. “I know that, I love you too.”
Mark stood there. Oh god, he’d fucked up. He’d really, really fucked up. He’d thought he was doing the right thing by stopping the wedding, he thought he was going to be the good guy. It was hitting him that he’d just ruined his best friend’s wedding.
“I’m… oh god, guys I am so sorry… I thought… I don’t know what I thought… I’m so sorry.” Mark spluttered, taking a desperate step towards both of them.
Howard put his hand on Mark’s arm. “Mark… its fine, it shows you care I suppose, just maybe next time ensure that your right.” Howard smiled a little. “I don’t think its us your going to need to make this up too…”
Mark turned around, Gary stared at him long and hard in the face before turning on his heel and slamming the big wooden doors behind him.
***
Mark found Gary outside, sat on the concrete wall, staring out over the fields that surrounded the stately home Gary had picked for the wedding. He’d liked it because it was quiet… not very well known and yet old and beautiful in its own right. They’d escaped the paparazzi to get here, Gary hadn’t wanted the wedding to be interrupted by anyone. He’d wanted it to be quiet, no drama yet spectacular.
Mark sat down quietly next to him. Mark hadn’t known what had been going through his head whilst he had been running towards the wedding ceremony, he’d woken up late and panicked. He just hadn’t wanted Howard to marry someone if they had been cheating, it would break Howard inside.
“I’m sorry.” Gary said quietly.
Mark jerked up his eyebrows in surprise. “What are you apologizing for? I’m the one that ruined the wedding you’ve been working so hard on.”
“I’m sorry being so crap recently, I’m sorry I left you last night to take a call, I’m sorry I don’t tell you I love you enough.” Gary said, not looking at Mark and instead keeping his eyes on the grounds before him.
Mark could hardly believe what was happening. Gary was apologizing? Jesus, that made him feel even worse about the whole thing.
“No, I’m sorry.” He said. “I acted out without meaning to, I just panicked you know.”
Gary’s heart hammered in his chest. His head hurt with unshed tears, but Gary wasn’t a crier. He turned to look at Mark, green eyes met green eyes.
“I’m also sorry for what I’m about to say.” Gary said. “It’s not working for me… you and I being together.”
Mark’s throat closed up, he felt like his world was coming crashing down around him.
“What?” He said, pain lining his features.
“You deserve someone who is always there for you… not distant like me… and I… I deserve someone who knows how much this wedding meant to me.” With that Gary stood and began to walk away, with every step he took his heart broke a little bit more. He couldn’t believe the words that were coming out of his mouth, like nothing he else he wanted to turn around and kiss Mark and tell him he was only joking, but his feet forced him forward. Further away.
Mark ran after him, grabbing his arm. “You cant leave me… we worked so hard to get here, don’t tell me you are coward enough to break everything we have without even talking it through like adults… if you want a break… fine… but you cant leave me for good, you just cant.” Mark felt like someone had shoved their hand down his throat and ripped his heart out, he couldn’t believe what he was hearing.
“We both need a break.” Gary said.
Mark let his hand drop from Gary’s arm and watched as Gary walked away. From inside the hall Mark could hear the applause as Jason and Howard were pronounced officially a civil partnership. Gary had said they were having a break. That meant they would get back together right? That had to be the way. Mark couldn’t do it alone. He turned around and watched through the window and Howard and Jason walked back down the aisle, hand in hand, smiling as people clapped. Like nothing else Mark needed his two best friends to talk to him about this… to tell him that everything was going to be okay. Mark watched as Pippa and Sophie ran screaming towards Howard, they embraced, both girls wiping tears from their eyes as they spoke excitedly to the newly married couple. Howard laughed and hugged them again. Swallowing his pain Mark walked back into the hall like nothing had happened.
***
Hours later after the celebrations, Jason stood in his and Howard’s suite. He looked down at the ring on his finger and smiled. He felt better about everything that had happened that day… okay so Mark ruined his surprise. Howard was still ecstatic that the girls were here. It was Sue and Nikki that had convinced him that everything was okay. The rest of the night had run smoothly, although Jason had seen neither Gary or Mark for the rest of the night… he felt sad that he had missed sharing his special day with his best friends but he supposed they needed to sort things out. Plus Robbie had been there, him and Kate showing off some very strange dance moves. Jason laughed quietly to himself. He was lucky to be surrounded by so many lovely people. He had danced with Rachel throughout the night, she even challenged him to a dance off. And won, by doing a fantastic robot. Although Jason insisted he had only been giving it 40%.
Howard opened the door to the suite. “Sorry that took so long, the girls had so much to tell me.” He smiled. “Women have a fantastic ability of talking so fast I barely got any of it.”
Jason smiled at his new ‘civil partner.’ It was a funny way of putting it, Howard was his husband in Jason’s eyes. His partner forever and always.
“Do you think we should see if Mark and Gary are okay?” Howard said looking concerned.
Jason shook his head. “No… they need to sort this out themselves… tonight is about us.”
Howard smiled. “Your right… come over here then.” Howard held out his hand.
Jason set his glass down on the table and took Howard’s hand. Howard drew him towards him and pressed his lips on Jason’s.
“Happy wedding day, I love you.” Howard said quietly.
Jason smiled and kissed him again. A smile spreading over his lips Jason wrapped his arms around Howard. Something felt different tonight between him and Howard… it was a like a new energy drawing them together. Even though they had been together for a good few years… tonight felt like they were right back to that very first time.
Howard’s hand drifted to Jason’s collar as he began to undo the buttons. Well atleast he attempted to anyway, only to find they appeared to have welded themselves shut. Howard stopped kissing Jason and attempted at the buttons again. Jason laughed.
“Seriously?” He said, still laughing.
“They have like welded shut!” Howard said grumpily. “You’d think for how expensive it was the buttons would fucking open… You’re going to have pull it over your head.”
Jason laughed again and raised his eyebrows. “It’s a shirt, it won’t get over my head.”
Howard sighed. “Well then I apologize, I hope this shirt didn’t mean to much to you.” And with that he took the collar and ripped the shirt clean from top to the bottom. Jason stared at his suddenly naked torso.
“Well that’s £600 out the window.” He muttered.
Howard grinned and pulled Jason back toward him. He could feel the warmth of Jason’s chest seeping through his own shirt, Jason’s hands were warm also as they successfully undid Howard’s shirt. Clothes began to hit the floor, Howard fumbled with the light switch and the room was plunged into almost darkness. The heat between him and Jason was almost unbearable, yet he delighted in the flames and the flickers of electricity that shot between them. Jason couldn’t help but thinking everything about Howard was perfect. He couldn’t keep the smile off his face as he pressed himself closer to Howard.
***
Sue, Rachel, Chloe, Kennedy and Nikki were all sat with their feet up, a glass of champagne in each of their hands.
“Christ my feet are killing me, bloody heels.” Grumbled Sue as she rubbed at her heel.
“I cant believe Jason and Howard are married… its so perfect.” Kennedy said taking a sip of her champagne.
“I am not one for romance particularly but even I cannot deny that those two were absolutely made for each other.” Rachel said grinning.
“Has anyone seen Mark or Gary?” Nikki asked, concern lining her features.
Chloe shook her head. “No… I suppose maybe they needed to talk stuff over… I mean Gary’s got to be pretty mad.”
Sue grimaced. “I hope they’re going to be okay… you know how passionate about stuff those two get.”
***
As Howard and Jason fell asleep in each other’s arms, their breath coming out raggedly, their hearts hammering against each other, Gary sat at his piano a pencil in his hand.
He scribbled at a piece of paper in front of him and played a few more chords. Nodding to himself he wrote something else down. Sitting back in his chair he sighed. Not even song writing was making him feel any better, his chest ached like nothing he’d ever experienced. He didn’t know how long he could stand being apart from Mark, oh God, what had he done? Gary ran his hands through his hair. He couldn’t live his life without Mark. He just couldn’t.
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